Getting there...

Only 3 weeks until the end of term and therefore the end of my first placement. Unbelievable. Crazy how fast time goes past.

I had a good day on Tuesday, for once I actually felt like I could do this and that maybe it wouldn't suck forever. Not so on Wednesday when I thought I was doing OK and suddenly AP starts taking over. Then, he kept talking to students whilst I was trying to get them to be quiet and listen, so GODDAMN DISTRACTING, if I did that in his lessons he'd have a fit. Then, I forgot what time the lesson ended, I thought it ended 10 minutes later than it actually did and when I realised, I skipped an activity and got them to write their homework down, pack up and wait for the bell. Meanwhile, I was talking to another student, explaining something to her and the bell rang, because I was concentrating on E. I forgot to tell them to go so they were a couple of minutes late out the door and he BOLLOCKED me. Andy rants normally really amuse me, not so amusing when you're the subject of them :( so that made me feel like shit.


I'm so tired of being constantly judged and criticised but I know that I just have to suck it up and deal with it for the most part. It sucks though. On the plus side, yesterday we went to the Isle of Wight to help some yr 11s with a competition. My group came second out of about 15 groups so that was brilliant. I had a really great day and it really lifted my spirits for a while, the kids were lovely and many people commented at how good my rapport was with them.

Oh well,  not long until I leave this placement, hopefully the next one will be better.

Also, I passed my first assignment with a good pass :)